Winter Solstice

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As we get drunk on that year
regret and joy swirl together,
in a concoction
bitter and sweet,
raging poison that I devour quickly.

Sitting across from me
you look at me with those eyes
an ember simmering quietly,
and once again I’m taken back
to your year worth of ‘love you’s
and my goodbyes
that I never really got to say.
I should be mad at you
but i look at you now
and
i
just
can’t
resist
you.

But this time,
i don’t overlook the truth
i can’t mistake the unabashed joy in your smile
when you say her name, anymore.
Every syllable you utter
makes my heart skip a beat in all the wrong ways
so I try to drown the suffocation
with liquid delusion
but I fail
and you see through me
you always saw right through me.

I feel an overwhelming sense of shame right then
how does someone see right through you
but still fail to love you
how?

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OxygenFebruary 24, 2022 at 3:44 AM

I feel an overwhelming sense of shame right then
how does someone see right through you
but still fail to love you
how?
??
-An ugly guy
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