I remember how easy it used to be Closing my eyes shut And, at once, seeing their names On the back of my eyes Painted in bright hues of red Always so close to feel To dream To touch With 'I love you's Gushing out of my lips Faster than I could remember to breathe. Always, All I did was love, love and love again With never present people Setting myself to rot In the chasm they'd build Out of lies and disguise Naïvety or Delusion? I could never figure. Until one day, I realized I was the liar Falling in love with feelings Never people. Setting myself up for loss every time Because despair was a feeling too And I'd rather feel sad than empty; Misery than nothingness.