The Chasm

I remember how easy it used to be 

Closing my eyes shut 

And, at once, seeing their names 

On the back of my eyes

Painted in bright hues of red 

Always so close to feel 

To dream 

To touch 

With 'I love you's 

Gushing out of my lips 

Faster than I could remember to breathe.

Always, 

All I did was love, love and love again

With never present people 

Setting myself to rot 

In the chasm they'd build

Out of lies and disguise

Naïvety or Delusion? 

I could never figure.

Until one day, 

I realized I was the liar

Falling in love with feelings

Never people.

Setting myself up for loss every time 

Because despair was a feeling too 

And I'd rather feel sad than empty; 

Misery than nothingness.