Falling Out

This was in no way in my thinking,
Never thought we would end up this way
Even with all the hopes and promises of forever
We slowly drifted away.

Even though you think otherwise now,
You had a special place in my heart, always.
I don't think that can ever be filled up
No one can ever take that place, no way!

I might have said the wrong things,
I might have always wanted my way
I apologize for all of it,
I don't want to end things the bitter way.

No matter how things ended between us,
I never wanted it in any way
But I do hope that you remain happy,
And realize that all I wanted was to see you that way.

We had an unfortunate falling out,
I don't know who is to blame,
But, I will always love you
I know you will do the same.

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