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Those Despicable Days !



Apart from the report card distribution days, exams are my least favorite part of the year. And I think it is not that hard to believe, because let’s face it . Who on earth likes to be tested on anything? Definitely not me. Exam gets to me in its own strange ways and I totally despise it.

I had a whole month to prepare for my exams and to be honest there were merely a handful of days when I actually studied. And when I was not studying, the stress that I was not studying was always on my mind. And because of that neither I could enjoy my time doing some other things nor could I possibly just go and study. Told you, Exam does pretty weird things to me.

I would just rather sit idly on my room rather than going through those literally out-of-the-world physics numerical that I know nothing about. I would rather do all those household chores, that my mother keeps on telling me that I should do, rather than balancing those crazy chemical equations.  During the past few days, all I’ve done really is slept most of the day, watched countless movies, just wandered from one (read pointless) web page to another,  talked on the phone with my best friend *each hour*, stalked a hell lot of people on facebook ,  done loads of unnecessary catching up with my old friends and many more stupid things. Yeah, it does make me anxious when I think about the exams that’s knocking on my door like RIGHT NOW....but what’s the use of studying if your mind is wandering elsewhere... Right ?

I know that I should be studying right this moment and should have studied last week and the week before that and the week before that... it makes me regret doing all those silly things the whole time. But I have no idea what has got into me this time. I just keep saying that I’d study tomorrow. And the “tomorrow” hasn’t arrived yet. *sighs*.

 Let’s hope some “ Greek god of education” or our very own “Saraswati mata” pities me and clicks her hand that makes me "attracted" towards those books, that have been left untouched the day my  preparation leave started. This is the only thing that can save me now.

On a related topic, I was just going through my facebook news feed today and this picture made me laugh. Yes, I absolutely adore and am CrAzY for Zayn Malik and No, I definitely didn’t study after seeing this too. Look what finals has done to me. Now even Zayn Malik has no effect on me! Lol

No effect...NONE at all :P







Comments

  1. apeeMay 7, 2013 at 9:10 AM

    throughout the WHOLE post, by which i mean, every freaking line, i was like IKR?
    ahh... the main and possibly the only hurdle between my oh-so-fairy-like world!! :/

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  2. Anusha NeupaneMay 7, 2013 at 9:13 AM

    Story of our lives ;)

    ReplyDelete

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